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tantrum: a petty field of sour grapes
Jul. 20th, 2021 01:23 amWHOA. Slow down, buttercup. I think the universe is trying to take advantage of my obsession with Reddit by chastising me through Reddit. Very mean, don't you think?
Well, you guys know just how much I love wasting my time scrolling through r/AmItheAsshole, right? It's entertaining, it's pretty juicy, and overall a pleasant subreddit where you can learn about what NOT to do to steer clear of assholesery. I mean, you never know. So yesterday I was reading posts from the subreddit, as per usual, when I came across this post, and it wasn't that big of a deal at first ("Oh ok, I see, a typical high-school drama between the popular girl and the recluse. I can see why it's annoying, yeah, but why is it such a big deal to you?") until it dawned on me that it was really just a pathetic case of sour grapes and that I can somehow slightly relate to OP because I'm also going through my own field of sour grapes, only that I never and will never try convincing a bunch of strangers to stay in my corner and rag on She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named to feel validated in my aversion. I don't think my dislike for her is even valid, it's really just a draining clusterfuck of a feeling that sprouted from pure, unadulterated jealousy. SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHHHHHHHHH. :(
Well, you guys know just how much I love wasting my time scrolling through r/AmItheAsshole, right? It's entertaining, it's pretty juicy, and overall a pleasant subreddit where you can learn about what NOT to do to steer clear of assholesery. I mean, you never know. So yesterday I was reading posts from the subreddit, as per usual, when I came across this post, and it wasn't that big of a deal at first ("Oh ok, I see, a typical high-school drama between the popular girl and the recluse. I can see why it's annoying, yeah, but why is it such a big deal to you?") until it dawned on me that it was really just a pathetic case of sour grapes and that I can somehow slightly relate to OP because I'm also going through my own field of sour grapes, only that I never and will never try convincing a bunch of strangers to stay in my corner and rag on She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named to feel validated in my aversion. I don't think my dislike for her is even valid, it's really just a draining clusterfuck of a feeling that sprouted from pure, unadulterated jealousy. SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHHHHHHHHH. :(
Yikes. I don't think it's right to feel proud for feeling this way even though I didn't go on a tangent about how so-and-so is annoying on Reddit. If anything, it's such an ugly and limiting feeling because I can't enjoy the things You-Know-Who also enjoys without scampering away and having a full-blown meltdown about everything that went wrong in my life. It's toxic, it's really unfair, I don't know everything about her iceberg. And someone hit the nail on the head when they said OP doesn't dislike Birthday Girl as a person at all. OP was only looking to make her a scapegoat because it's a lot easier than accepting that her bitter feelings come from her own life and problems. I can relate.
